Life's been horrible these days...REALLY HORRIBLE.. I'd GP test this morning and guess I'll be failing it. I have absolutely NO idea what to write and how am I supposed to write it! Somehow, i feel that we should be given more essays to write on. Not that I'm nuts about doing homework or what but seriously without practising, how are we supposed to learn? Read? well, no. We have to learn from our mistakes. It is the mistakes we encounter that make us grow...

Tomorrow's econs test and I'm feeling braindead right now. Nothing goes in and nothing comes out. I wonder what happened to me, where's the motivation that I had last year? The motivation that drives me to work so so hard for all my tests, to complete all my work on time...

Friendship problems' also weighing me down. And I dont know what to do with it. Somehow or another, I just dont feel comfortable being with that person anymore. It's not that I loathe her or something but...I dunno! I'm in a state of confusion right now. How I wish that someone will somehow be able to give me advice but I know that in the end, I still have to make my own decision, to find my own solution...

I'm having this sudden urge to cry right now, to cry out all my troubles and all but, does it really help? Will all my troubles be gone after tears are dried and be forgotten about? Oh wells, I guess not. Crying doesnt help in solving problems, it merely numbs your pain for a moment or two and after which, the pain will return and you'll fall back into the endless pit of troubles again. So why cry? Why waste your tears when you can save it for the future when you REALLY need it? when pain's too unbearable, when the sight of your loved ones parting from you re-surfaced the pain that you've been trying to cover up, trying to hide behind the mask that you're wearing...Coming to think about it, I feel that I'd really missed my dearies. Vanessa mei and daphne dear.

MISSED YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! so much that it hurts):

-sighx-