6 more papers before end of examx

wanting to make this blog a private one...
nt wanting anyone to be reading this...mayb nt people whom i know...
there's sumthing deep in my heart that still hurts whenever i think abt it....
sumthing that will break my heart when my friends speak of it...
maybe it's jux my pride that's hurt...
i tried to cover myself up...but no matter how hard i tried...
i still couldnt make it...
sumtimes i really want to cry my heart out...
forget all my troubles...all the humiliation...
why...why must this happen to me?
i had contibuted so much...sacrificed so much...and wad i get is to be humiliated...
on the surface...i haf given my frens an idea that i had overcomed this lost.
but never they knew...deep down inside my heart...
it's still as hurting and i just couldnt forget about it...

wiping away tears that were welling up in my eyes...i typed this blog..
wondering when will i ever truly overcome this pain...haiZzz...